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Wednesday, January 8, 2014

Give me your name...tell me who you are and I will tell your story.


*Staring at the flashing cursor on the new GIANT computer screen that blocks the chair across from my desk, twirling  giant pen with sunflower doohickey bobbing from the top with right hand while feeding the last six inches of a three foot twizzler into pie hole, listens as character shuffles around in the club chairs hidden by the  big as small tv..in fact it could be a tv sized monitor*

“So, I need your story. Why are we here?”


*deep voices, softly spoken, but reverberating in the room* “ Wouldn’t you rather get to know me?”

“Um… isn’t that what I just said?”

“No

*Sighs, puts down pen, takes off reading glasses* “I’d like to speak to the muse” * clearly I don’t have time for this*

* slightly irritated sigh* “What makes you think you aren’t speaking to him

*Raises eyebrow. Well, you know if I’d hadn’t been born with perfect facial anatomy and had that little defect that would let me raise one brow. Whatever. Rolls eyes  and gives the “don’t give me shit look”* “ Because I know my muse.”

*chuckles* “ Do you, now?”

“Muse?” *Peeks over the top of monitor and notices the muse lounging on the leather club chair. Leather pant clad legs splayed, muscles rippling…wait muscles? Where is his shirt? Why is he dressed like that?  Black eyes meet Brown. Muse smirks and familiar dimples flash briefly. Frowns and forgets to bitch about him abusing her furniture. Rolls desk to the side. I gotta keep an eye on these doors, mofo’s just prestadegitating up in here… nawl.*

*Quirks eyebrow because it irritates me that he can and I can’t*  “Yes, Riley?”

“Ok, that’s creepy.” *shakes off a tiny tremor of … “uh oh, this might not go so well”*

*flashes dimple* “Why is that?”

“Where were you? Why’d you leave me here with him?”

*dark eyes flash to mine then away. What is that…anger?* Why would you think I’d left you? That I wasn’t here? Always.

“Don’t play, you ghosted and he was…” * wait, is he? Is that growling*

*clenches jaw and narrows eyes* “Me, I was right here.”

“This character was just here and…”

*shifts legs so that feet are flat on the floor, leans forward quickly with elbows on knees, shakes head then relaxes back with arm draped over the back of the chair, staring out the window* “I’ve been in this chair, Riley. Watching you eat candy like a kid at camp.” *exasperated voice*

“Ok, that’s how we’ll play this. You’ve been in that chair, but this character was in here somewhere and he…” * getting about sick of him cutting me off*

“NO. CHARACTER. * moves from chair to the front of the desk in burst of what the fuck speed*  Me, I’ve been right here, Riley * leans over desk*
Me.  RIGHT. HERE!

*Gulps audibly. Squints to cover.  Reaches for cigarette* “ ok, sheesh calm down, pull your panties out”
“You know better than that”

 “ you know not to be in here without no drawers on, nasty”

*GRINS* “like you know me.”

“ I've known you forever.”  *Blows smoke literally and figuratively. I’m the boss here. This is my office dammit.* “ I know you.  I’m just trying to get to who this character is. I need a name, you know this. You know that’s how I work. * two can play this damn game, raises that eyebrow again—shut up*  “Give me your name…give me… your story.”
“its not like you care”

“Stabs out cigarette angrily*

*voice oozes seduction* Do you, Riley?  Do you really care to know me?

*Hurt, Looks away, pouting* “I've always cared. Why do you think I’m always chasing you? Stroking your ego? I need you and you need me. You’re my friends and I love you. * Not that you’re so transparent with your feelings, you fickle, Machiavellian….**inner grumbling**

* wicked grin, annoying as fuck stupid hell chuckle*

*shouting pathetic wail* “JUST GIVE ME A NAME” * why am I always begging this mother fucker!*
“ Go bake something.”  * Leans hip on desk and checks nails*

*stands abruptly to storm out*  “Oh, I’mma back you something alright, Jackass”

*Grabs my wrist and spins me into his arms* “ What did I tell you about that.”

“KISS. MY. …” 
*smack*

“OUCH, HEY.. WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE!”


*guides me to chair, hands resting on shoulders, pushing me to sit before ghosting away. Softest whispers follows his exit*  “Cyrus”

Thursday, October 24, 2013

I AM DREA RILEY: The ReInvention of me.

I don't suppose that is a completely accurate title. I am not really re-inventing myself. More like, re-affirming, expounding and releasing.

This Blog will be dedicated to Drea Riley, the writer and all of her quirky alter egos and friends.

There will be muses, other authors and shenanigans. 

Where my other blog is more of a personal out let, this blog probably will be more of a re-commitment to the craft of story telling.  

2013 was NOT the bee knees for me as a person or as a story teller. It wasn't totally suck-tastic. But it surely didn't live up to all that I'd imagined it could be. 
It was a new start. A stepping stone. A learning stage.

I realized that I was loosing myself in the crush of "being a writer."  I was smothering myself by trying to ...hell I don't know what the fuck I was trying to do.

I wanted so much to "grow up" that I scared myself. My ability to put words on paper  has been shut down to the point of panic attacks and avoidance. Oh don't get me wrong! The Ideas are still there. I've pitched plot line after plot line. But when it came down to delivering. I was lost.

I came to depend on other people to tell me what the story was. Who the character were. And still I couldn't be trusted to commit. To follow through.

I got wrapped up in cultivating relationships and tandems and duos, that I forgot how to nourish my independent creativity. 

I'm a social creature, at least I want to be. And I got so wrapped up in the need to be included that I stopped doing what it was that got the readers attention to begin with.
Writing.

I told myself  that too many authors get caught up in being "serious" authors that they forget to engage the fans. I'm a fan, first and foremost. A READER...I want to be with the fans...be with the readers.

I thought that there are so many talented extraordinary writers out there. I can't compete with them in the game. I can't spit out 60-160k words. My attention span is the brain child of a gnat matting with a goldfish. So to be relevant, I'll be the chic thats just always there. Good for a chat.

Well, that only works to a certain extent. Its been a full year since I've published anything.  And what good is a writer, who doesn't write.

I lost myself for a while. I let my fear of not being good enough stop me from just being who I am. I let myself fear competition where there is none.

So this next two months is about wrapping up that chapter in my life. Along with closing the doors on some very heavy personal times.  I'm not going to lie here and say that I'm going to knock out a book a month. But I am going to say that this blog is part of my communion. My re-dedication to the art.  My re-commitment to story telling.

The Reinvention of me.

I. AM. DREA. RILEY.